Have you had the experience of taking a walk and being so preoccupied with “what’s going on in your life” that you missed what was going on in your life right in front of you?  It’s as if you may as well not have been there.  You missed the sand pipers leading you along the path, the red tailed hawk in the tree next to you, the white puffy cloud against a blue, blue sky.  Life was trying to give itself to you, and you were fighting what you thought was “your life.”

Sometimes I picture God like hopeful parents bent over a crib waving a rattle at their baby hoping to engage the baby.  The baby cries.  They try to sharpen its sense of connection.  The baby stares off obliviously.  They try to sing a song to bring it into the lovely world of music. 

To be centered in life itself is a very different experience from simply focusing on “the stuff in my head.”  It’s a life of being engaged, not isolated; connected, not wrapped in literally “my own little world.”  The only real life is life shared.  This may sound odd, but there really is no life at all if there is no sharing.  And that is because when we get below all the “stuff in our head” and just get down to where we are simply a human being living and breathing and aware that we did not generate all of this for ourselves—that is when it is possible to experience our Source.  We are like a plant that—removed from the source-ing ground—would simply wilt and not be.  The life we call “our own” is a life that is being shared with us by another Source.

God is the Rain Cloud; we are the river.  We are not the Rain Cloud; but we are not other than the Rain Cloud.  All that we have comes from the Rain Cloud and goes back to the Rain Cloud.  We could spend our lives worrying because our existence seems so dependent on, contingent upon, the Rain Cloud.  Or we could marvel in this great sharing that allows us to in fact live.

And we can trust this generous sharing of life, not to be given as a cynical tease.  Why?  Because “the proof is in the pudding.”  When we choose to simply embrace the life we are given (it’s not all birds on a walk, but it is all a journey of learning to love), we find the life we were intended to live—a life that is shared with a great Lover. 

This is the “rest for our soul” that Jesus mentions in tonight’s gospel.  It is different than the restless soul.  When we experience the latter, we need to “return to center” and pay attention to the deeper truth.

Sts. Clare & Francis
14th Sunday in Ordinary Time
Saturday, July 5, 2014
Zechariah 9:9-10
Romans 8:9, 11-13
Matthew 11:25-30
Homily by Frank Krebs

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